I've finally found what I want to do.
I have messed around with music software and hardware for the past 5 years or so, but never put an extended period of time into. Reasons being that I had a lot of other interests at the time, I was writing, taking photos, drawing, and I wasn't sure if music was where I wanted to focus my energy.
Another reason being, that I wasn't willing to put the time/hard work in to develop the skills. In my mind I had, what I thought to be, great songs, but my technical ability sucked, which frustrated me and caused me to never devote enough time to it. I had the songs in my head, but making them is a whole different thing.
Hard work was never instilled in me when I was growing up. It was something that I've had to learn.
I was fortunate to grow up in a family, where, if something was needed, a majority of the time it could be provided.
But the past two and a half years, during my time in Korea, I have been exposed to what hard work really is. Seeing everyone work so hard, in no matter what they do, forced me to look at myself and realise that I wasn't doing no where near enough to attain the goals that I had. And it made me question if I really wanted the things that I did.
I miss Korea.
I also took on an attitude of no excuses, if you really want something there should be no reason why you don't devote every spare second of your time to it. If you can't do that, then you don't really want it. Sacrifice everything for your goal. Commit yourself without distraction. And once you're there, work even harder to make sure you stay there.
With hard work and dedication I know I can be successful in music. There isn't a doubt in my mind.
After being lost for a really long time I finally feel I have a direction to run in again.
Yes, I know I said design was the way forward for me, but this is what I truly want to spend my time doing.
Music is one of the most beautiful things we have available to us. And I want to add to that.
Out of all the arts, I feel music stands alone in being the only one that truly has a place in our lives.
The rest we could do without.
This is something that is going to take a lot of time before I achieve any sort of success. I'm going to suck for a while, but I've got to push through that or I'll be sitting at this same desk for the rest of my life, never getting anything done.
I'm looking forward to where this is going to take me. I am going to be patient, but I won't be lazy.
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